!@#$&%

Even now as a friend, she’s still runnin’ games…

It’s been ages since I’ve posted ANYTHING on here. But really felt the need to rant on social media, purely because no one can interupt me mid-speech. Isn’t social media just fucking fabulous?

So it’s natural, that us females, have “falling’s out” with friends and such, and sometimes you get through, and sometimes… you wanna scream “DEATH TO YOU DUMB BITCH!”, well, it’s safe to say, this is not one of those moments… That was earlier this year… And the dumass is still a dumass… Still waiting for her fall from grace…

ANYWAYS - back to what I was actually rambling on about, regardless is anyone reads this, just gotta get this off my chest.

My ex-girlfriend, we’ll name her “XXX” for this little rant, anyway XXX and I broke up a while back, went through all the whole up and down, I love you, I hate you bullshit, and finally we both came out on top of it… Well at least I believe I did successfully, got myself a new lady (we’ll call her “HOTBIATCH” hahahaha), moved the fuck out of Sydney, livin’ the high life (literally) on the water and such! ;)

So XXX and I have tried to maintain a good friendship, realistically, I don’t want her to go anywhere in my life. She was the first person I really loved, and 4 years was a long time, however, I am most certainly 100% over her (in that way), but wanted to keep this friendship. And XXX felt the same! GREAT! SO WHAT THE HELL WENT WRONG?! So in the meantime XXX got her self a girlfriend, I was really happy for her, really just wanted her to be happy. Even if this new girlfriend wanted my head on a platter… 

They eventually broke up. A relationship built on spite will never work. So all the fighting between them happened, and I became Dr Phil. I had no problems whatsoever giving XXX advice and helping her through yet another tough time… And then they lost all contact, and XXX was ready to move on… AGAIN… 

I get a message from XXX to check out some cool pics on her Facebook, I couldn’t view them, and realised we weren’t Facebook friends anymore, which wasn’t an issue, a friend is a friend, no social networking site can be the only thing to confirm friendships. She then messaged me saying that I need to contact her new ex (not me haahaha) to say all this shit, so they would stop fighting. Not really my problem, don’t you think? Anyways, I worked out that this was why she deleted me, so that her ex wouldn’t get mad at her… At the time, I thought “what the hell! who gives a shit!”, and I didn’t care….

UNTIL - XXX asks me for help, on a few occasions. I would be more than happy to help out. But why would I help out a friend of mine, if our friendship doesn’t exist to the people that matter TO HER in HER life!? 

I genuinely feel that if her ex (probably soon to be her gf again) found out we were still friends, that drama’s would arise and I would dragged into it. And I’m not in the mood to deal with an ISSUE that has really NOTHING TO DO WITH ME, or what I do in life… 

OVER IT.

Sometimes I feel like I’m talking to myself.

aurorafitandhealthy-deactivated asked: weeeeed. smoke some.

Always man, always.

I’ve got sore eyes & a heavy heart.

My Biggest Regret

Letting go of music & choosing a career. 
The BIGGEST mistake I have ever made.